Confused & Lost

"The first step to getting the things you want out of life is this: Decide what you want." - Ben Stein

"A lie can travel halfway around the world while the truth is putting on its shoes" - Mark Twain

Internal Struggle

I'm sure everyone goes through this. I do a lot of thinking. My head can be in the wrong places a lot of the time. I have so many things to think about. I usually struggle with this: whether to situate certain things emotionally or logically. Should we think with our hearts or our minds? Any thoughts?

Hope

I'm just looking to have a happy, comfortable life. I'm not looking to make millions of dollars. I'm not looking to lead a life with materialistic ideals and high maintenance habits. As long as I'm doing what I love and pursuing things that I feel make me happy, than I'm on the right path. And as of right now, I'm definitely on that path :]

Question

Sometimes I question myself, my decisions and my goals. I wonder whether I'm pursuing certain things for the right reasons or if I'm not pursuing things that I should. I'll make mistakes and I'll fuck up. But it's all part of this learning process. 

Decided

I've officially changed my major to photography! I really think this is for me. Wish me luck :D 

So I take a look at my life. I have music to make. I have photos to take. And as of November 11th, I have a girlfriend that I'm ready to please ;] I have so much to look forward to.

My music is progressing. I'm growing as a musician. One thing I'd like to do is get in touch with my soul, ya know. I want to be in tune with it so that I find myself. I feel that I'm growing as a person. I try to stay true. No one's frontin' here. I've been looking for a balance in all of this. That's been my influence in my music lately. I'm just the average guy, livin' this life looking for a meaning in all of it. We all have purpose, so hopefully I find more purpose in my life.

Lately, I've been trying to develop that swag in my music. That tastiness. That nasty vibe. I personally think that you can only express this swagger through music that you really mean - music that comes from your soul! It's deeper than your body. Deeper than the mind. Is it hereditary? Is it attainable? I'd like to find out. This is my goal.

My first blog! I've made this to share my photos with everyone. Occasionally, there will be random pictures that I'm just jizzing all over. But for the most part, I'm posting pictures that depict what I'm thinking, how I'm feeling, what I've been doing, etc. So please, if you have any suggestions or comments, feel free to let me know what y'all think. I'm all for constructive criticism :] Enjoy.

-Tim Ferguson